Sunday, September 11, 2011

Letting go.

If there's one thing i don't do well, its letting go after i've invested so much energy into something. Be it work or love. A few years back, i got hurt badly - emotionally. And it took me a few years (yes, years) to recover. I was the epitome of an emotional wreck. I always put really heart-broken related statuses on my chatting status. I found every quote that was depressing about love. I shied away from socializing with the opposite sex. I was just too beaten down to put myself out there. And the worst part, i didn't really open myself up to anyone about it. I guess, all the things i mentioned above was a desperate cry for help. 

And now, when i see people that go through the same thing, i can say ' I understand' and really mean it, not saying it as a kind gesture. I see similarities in the way we cope with such events in our lives. And i do make an effort to try to reach out to them, because i knew if i were that person, i'd appreciate it. Not many people may really know what we are going through, and its difficult to explain to them. I'm not gonna bluff, there's a tinge of shame that i had about what had happened to me. Vulnerability is not something people like to show. At least for me it is. I'm not going to feel hurt/offended if that person refuses to share his/her experience with me. I know i've done my part to try and help. If their not willing to accept it, there's really nothing more that i can do. Yeah, we need a little push to get out of ruts in our life, but it all boils down to us, helping ourselves in the end.

When i think back, i think of what a mess i was. And actually, i now realize that it was me who was in my own way of happiness. I am happy, but i could be happier. I'm trying to find happiness in everyday, which is a very nice way to welcome each day.

Lets all be optimistic. About work, life and love (: 

With ♥,

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