Why are you still so afraid?

Slow down, you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be 
Before your time...

I want this from Topshop!

I've been away from home for 2 months+ for National Service early this year and one of the things i looked forward to doing when i came back was to chill and catch up on my blog reads...Kinky Blue Fairy being one of them.

Anyhow, I came across a very intriguing post by KBF. Ticket giveaway for an exclusive catwalk preview of the latest SS 12 collection??? That opportunity was too good not to give a go! Anyway, here i am, trying my luck! 

It was a very difficult choice but i finally narrowed it down to shoes and this pair stole my heart {heart flutters}

(pretty please?) 
{Click the picture to go to the website and feast your eyes on other TopShop goodies, i dare ya :D}

I'm pretty much lusting over loafers at the moment because it perfectly combines two of my favorite elements i like in shoes - classic and minimum height ! I love how it adds a polished look to any outfit. Plus, don't you think the pink (peek-a-boo) soles are abso-positutely adorable?? :3

Make my day, Kinky Blue Fairy, with this lovely opportunity to attend my first ever fashion show. I have been wearing my national service uniform for 2 months...i would relish the opportunity to get dressed up for a fancy and exciting event ! & of course, a chance to meet and mingle with you (:

What more, its the Spring and Summer collection...something that at least, Malaysian weather can relate to all year round...(: 

{I'm already thinking of what to wear, don't let me down...(;}

Double Whammy.

What an emotional week. I'm finally back home for good from National Service. What an experience. 

And just a few days ago, i graduated from my university. 

Thus the title will make sense to You - my lovely reader(s). 

If you're reading this, thanks for checking in ! I know there are cobwebs on my blog at the moment, but stay tuned alright...(;

45 days

After 1 week of CNY break, i'm packing my bags once again to return to camp. I already feel so homesick dreading to zip up my bags and leave. And then i think to myself, imagine how real military life is like. Those people leave for Iraq which is thousands of miles away from home. Imagine the impact on their psycho.

Thinking about it that way made me feel kind of ashamed of being so 'dramatic' about leaving... 

Give me the strength to persevere till the end of the camp tenure. 

Bye for now.

Snaps : Chinese New Year 2012

 First CNY that my dad actually hung lanterns





And mom lighted up the porch (not to mention, first CNY with the new porch!) with candles.






Yee Sang was delicious this year. We managed to actually wipe the whole plate clean!

First CNY in many many years where i actually wore something cheong sam (inspired).


These wiping mittens were too cute to not take pictures with!

For a few years, my dad would hold these "Drawing competitions" for us to earn extra ang paos. 

Here's my drawing! Before you think i'm a Picaso (eleh), i referred to Google images for inspiration! I didn't trace though (:

If you notice the discrepancies between the qualities of the photos, good eye! (though i think its easy to spot). Some are taken with my dad's canggih camera and some are with my compact. How i wish i could dazzle my blog readers (and myself) with pretty quality photos all the time... Gosh, i'm going to save up for a decent slr when i get the chance! 

I don't really look forward to going back to camp tomorrow considering i had such a nice time back home. Still in the festive mood. meh. Been sleeping late and waking up fairly late as well...uh oh.

The next time i'll be back, it'll be for my graduation! Thats 45 days from now .___.

Anyways, I hope your CNY celebrations were splendid, surrounded by family and friends.

"I'm a boomerang, doesn't matter how you throw me,

I turn around and i'm back in the game,

Even better than the old me"

- I'm not over you; Gavin DeGraw

CNY Break

This year's Chinese New Year pawns my previous ones because i was away at PLKN for 6 days. Feels incredibly good to be back home for a break. What i can say so far is that, my experience in the camp so far  has involved and will continue to test not only my physical strength but also mental strength. Overall, everything's been pretty swell. Anyways, let me show you some photos i snapped while i still had possession of my camera. I'm not going to reveal too much until the camp is over, so this will do for now.

Mooooooo-ve

Palm trees, palm trees and ooh wait. nah, more palm trees..

My 'home' for the nxt 1 1/2 months...

Will update before i leave. till then, Happy Chinese New Year to all who celebrate (:

Tomorrow, i'll be somewhere else.

Didn't intend on blogging, but i felt like i wanted to remember how i felt before going into NS.

I feel slightly nervous.
I am going to miss alot of things...

Waking up (late) in the morning in my cozy bed.
Seeing my parents and brother everyday.
My computer.
Generally, just being at home.
And then, there's freedom .__.
At least, CNY break is only a week away. That won't make things too gloomy.

I wonder what i'll be doing when tomorrow comes...



And to commemorate Foster the People's concert tonight, with one of my favorite songs of theirs. It should be an epic concert.

Bootcamp.

Yeah, basically i am deciding to share the news publicly. I'm reporting back for National Service after deferring for 3 years to finish my degree. The reporting back part wasn't as easy and smooth as i thought, but thankfully everything is confirmed now.

Most people may think i'm 'crazy' for reporting back.

"What??? Why??"

"They won't bother calling you back la!"

Its a decision i made to get it off my plate before i start my journey in building my career. I'm trying to be open minded about it. Sometimes we get thrown into situations where we have to learn to adapt. This is one of those experiences i guess. I don't think i'm on the losing end since i'm not exactly ready to jump into the workforce just yet. 

One thing is, i hope i can endure the physical aspect of it all. Plus, how am i going to survive without internet connection for two months plus?? (But i guess, this will help me jump start #1 of my aspirations for 2012). I don't know which is more 'painful' though :D 

First week there is not going to be easy but i'm going to dig out the tough cookie in me. Anyways, wish me luck! I'll be sure to update when i come back for CNY break! (looking forward to it x5 this year!)

//update

Just wanted to share a photo i took whilst packing for my stay away from civilization (i exaggerate).

Yes my news is real. I even got a (purple) Pail to wash my clothes while i'm there .__. hehe

Labelling almost all of my belongings...

This is just a fraction of what i've packed. My mom was on top of the packing till the point that i got a bit annoyed. or maybe i'm just too darn lazy. I'm glad i had her to boss me around to do it, otherwise i wouldn't have finished packing in half a day! Buying all the necessities was so tiring! I'm glad its over and now i can just relax and mentally prepare myself for the camp.

I'll be leaving this saturday (14/1) so hopefully you can say your goodbyes before then (:

Twenty One.

This year's birthday was kinda of odd. I had pre-birthday and post birthday celebrations and a very low key birth-day itself. Its pretty nice, since it makes it more memorable than the last 20 birthdays. I am truly thankful for every single wish , tweet, fb message i received. The fact that someone takes a time out of their lives to think about me, is just too precious to me. I'm just a sucker for the little things.

something that you don't see very often on my blog - my face :D

This song is pretty much how i feel about turning a year older. I am officially an adult...there's so much more to learn and experience. I'm all for it! 

To another year of living (:

A Natural Remedy.

Darn, maybe all the running around in December has caught up to me. Being sick is always terrible, lets hope i feel better soon!

Nature always has had that therapeutic and calming effect on me. When i used to feel faint, my dad would advice me to 'focus on the green'.  This is the perfect timing to share some shots of nature in Melbourne in my slightly drowsy state (my prescribed meds are strong i tells ya!). Beautiful during spring, luckily it still is during the start of summer!

I'm trying to keep my photos XL (instead of the usual L). this makes me less prone to sacrificing on the quality of my photos. I use to dread having them so big, as people would notice how pix elated my photos were. i usually blame it on my camera, but i guess a poor workman blames his tools (?), I really would like an update from my current camera though, a better lens would be nice (am using a compact, so need to get a new one altogether). luckily for me, the sun was shining and the light was just nice, me thinks. The props need to go to my beautiful surroundings.

My grandma is really a pro at gardening.  Here are some of her 'creations' :

And some at random places :

















Being by the sea always gets me excited. The splashing of the waves is also incredibly calming.


I'm feeling better already :D

Aspirations for 2012.

1. Spend less time on the computer (which doesn't equate to non-existent blogging, more like more efficient  and effective use of online time)
2. Cook more (any simple nice recipes to share, anyone?)
3. Take more photos; so i can improve my camera skills and it'll motivate me to work towards upgrading my camera for a secret (but fulfilling) hobby that has taken a back sit.
4. Be more tidy and organized. (first on the list, the bedroom)
5. Save up my own hard earned money for a decent smartphone
6. Reduce financial dependency on parents.
7. Be more physically active.
8. Be more frugal with money (less eating out, less shopping for wants).
9. Dress up more (in order to put everything in my wardrobe to good use, or else, sell off stuff i barely touch!)
10. Be more grateful, positive and determined and not rest on my laurels.
11. Be more open minded.
12. Reduce sugar intake.
13. Be a better daughter, friend, student (of the world), employee (when the time comes), citizen
14. Worry less over things i cannot control or shouldn't be worrying about.
15. Read more.


I thought i'd only churn out a maximum of 10...this looks promising. The bigger challenge is to make sure i do what i set out to do.

I'll keep my progress posted when i can.